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(We were talking on the phone)
You said : Lets play a game
I said : Ok, why not? I love games
You said : Lets have no connection with each other for 10 days, starting right after this phone call, no sms, no call, no facebook, no nothing.... whoever contacts the other party would have lost the game
I said : Any exceptions?
You said : Apart from emergencies like car accidents or anything like that, absolutely no contact
I said : What happen if you lose? Any consequences?
You said : If you lose, I'll think of a punishment, if I lose, you think of one
I said : Ok, but 10 days is so long, I'm going to miss you so much
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So here I go, agreeing to this game, not a bad idea too.....
Maybe our sms-es are getting too draggy? Maybe you want to save up on your phone bill?
All maybe's, I don't know, all I know is I'm missing you alot
DAY 1
It's 10:32pm, you called, we had this small talk on the game, can't believe you actually counted down on the number of days before I go back, awww.... so touched. Then you suggested the game and I agreed. We talked for 57 minutes and 37 seconds. It was so hard for me to put down the phone, knowing I would not hear your voice for another 10 days. Technically today is not day 1, maybe I should put it as night 1...... haha, but anyway I'm going to SUPER MISS you...... *sobs* . I deleted your number, so that I can control myself when I have the sudden urge to call you.
DAY 2
Another day of errands, I can't get you out of my mind. You are like a drug, I'm so addicted to you. And..... I also memorized your phone number, seeing that I deleted it (no point right? but anyway..... haha..... I do lots of stupid things) Missing you so much that I had to blog about it. But I know you don't read my blog...... so ... haiz.... nvm. I want to hug you, talk to you, but I had to control myself.
My results are out, I want to share this news with you, but I simply cannot, I'm beginning to think that this game is lousy.
I'm tired of going pasar malam, even shopping ! I just want to see you.
DAY 3
I'm so not used to this. Waking up in the morning and not seeing your message on my phone. I woke up especially early to check my results, haiz, "I got a B for OB !" I want to tell you, but you see......... thanks to this game I cannot.
DAY 4
Another uneventful day. I'm in day 4 and I'm still missing you, staying at home too long has really played tricks on my mind, watching movies the whole day didn't really help. Hmmm.... remember to study hard for your exam ya, remember to do quiet time.... haha..... getting more and more 'cheong hei' already.
DAY 5
When I read back on my day 1 to day 4 posts I feel like...... YER...... why I write until so geli 1 ?
HAHA...... Today I'm quite used to not talking to you, not hearing from you, not as anxious anymore. Come to think of it, sometimes my walk with God could turn into something like this too, when I stop talking to Him for a few days, it feels uneasy at first, but then later on it becomes ok, I'm used to the feeling, and if I drag on, I might even think that my life can go pretty well without God. Complacency. Dangerous.
DAY 6
Today I went to mid valley with my dearest XXXXXXX (it's complicated) to watch Avatar in 3D !!! Hah..... who ask you go and watch first..... bler. The show was really nice in 3D....! Today staying over in PJ and going home tomorrow. Wondering what you are doing nowadays...studying? facebook-ing? futsal-ing? sleeping? (by the way you sleep too much)
Anyway, 4 more days to go before I go back..... Can't wait !! HEHE
DAY 7
Yea, I'm finally at day 7. Can't believe I'm hearing myself say that I can't wait to go back to Kampar, I used to dread going back there. Sure.... Kampar is a beautiful town with wonderful people, scenery and food, but then leaving KL means leaving home, pampering (from mummy), shopping, the cinema or any form of entertainment, once you are in Kampar, you feel like you are trapped in that small small small small small (you get my point) place away from everything you have grown so used to.
DAY 8
Urgh....... 头痛的一天。太讨厌了，简单的事情都不能解决。整天吵架，烦死我了。
How I wish you were here.
2 more days to go..... haha, going back soon soon......
Helped my mom do the company accounts today, accounts are a pain! All the figures are making my head explode ! I detest doing accounts ! Salute to all accountants out there. How you people do this kind of job???? It's just plain complicated.
DAY 9
This post is getting abit boring, no? 但无论如何我还是要把它完成。
今天继续做Ａｃｃ，头痛！
没有特别的情绪，明天要回去了！哈哈哈哈哈哈
DAY 10
Finally I reached day 10, muahahaha. Back in kampar, a mixed feeling of joy and sadness. Just plain complicated. HAHA. Anyway, what do I have to say? nothing ! the story ends here.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Friday, November 6, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
FRUSTRATED
I feel frustrated at myself
I get really annoyed when I make a mistake,say something wrong,and especially when I forget things.
Why am I such an idiot ?!!!!
I just feel like tearing something apart
I'm losing control,losing concentration,losing a lot.
I shouldn't be so uptight,but then again,I can't seem to forgive myself.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
What a way to start a sem
I had a really great time during my sem break, went to a lot of places, well not really a lot but I did plenty of shoppin !!! haha.I even worked! But then that was only for 2 days, in aunty rebecca's kindergarten.The one great part was I went Palace of the Golden Horses with my parents,stayed in the 6 star room,talk about luxury!
I started the sem with many new surprises and got myself involved in many things *cough cough*
Now I'm dead broke,my phone bill reached RM 158 (Thanks to me who kept using the phone to call),my new acoustic guitar costs RM 1500 (came with casing and a mini amp),my house rental(as usual)is RM 150,unit exemption fee for bahasa kebangsaan is RM 100 (UTAR wants to dig our pockets dry),summore this sem I'm using the car, therefore need to pump petrol,need to buy tickets to use the swimming pool,need to pay my friend for buying the swimming cap and goggles.
As you can see.....I badly need to save money,I shall cook at home and try to save up on other expenses.
SAVE MONEY !!!!!
I started the sem with many new surprises and got myself involved in many things *cough cough*
Now I'm dead broke,my phone bill reached RM 158 (Thanks to me who kept using the phone to call),my new acoustic guitar costs RM 1500 (came with casing and a mini amp),my house rental(as usual)is RM 150,unit exemption fee for bahasa kebangsaan is RM 100 (UTAR wants to dig our pockets dry),summore this sem I'm using the car, therefore need to pump petrol,need to buy tickets to use the swimming pool,need to pay my friend for buying the swimming cap and goggles.
As you can see.....I badly need to save money,I shall cook at home and try to save up on other expenses.
SAVE MONEY !!!!!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
IAMHAVINGMYFINALSTOMORROWANDTHISISWHATIAMDOINGNOW
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
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You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
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Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
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Nosy Level: 60%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
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You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
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Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
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Nosy Level: 60%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Finals
Finals are coming up and i don't have the mood to study.
Still relaxing.......
Pray hard that my grades don't drop too much this sem.
Don't have anything to blog, but just don't want to go study.
Blogging.... alone at home....
Feeling bored.....
and I found this.....
music theory.....
haha, so random......
Still relaxing.......
Pray hard that my grades don't drop too much this sem.
Don't have anything to blog, but just don't want to go study.
Blogging.... alone at home....
Feeling bored.....
and I found this.....
music theory.....
haha, so random......
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Short term memory loss
It always happens to me somehow.......
And once again I should just get over myself and laugh it off... but then I think it's my pride and stupidity that makes me hold on to petty things in life.
I should just forget all the little little things I do wrong and move on.
Man make mistakes like man go toilet
Laugh at it and move on in life as we go to toilet everyday
The matter is so small that even I would laugh at it when I look back at it few days later, but then I just can't stop thinking of it now.
What I did was......
I forgot whether I locked the door or not.
And once again I should just get over myself and laugh it off... but then I think it's my pride and stupidity that makes me hold on to petty things in life.
I should just forget all the little little things I do wrong and move on.
Man make mistakes like man go toilet
Laugh at it and move on in life as we go to toilet everyday
The matter is so small that even I would laugh at it when I look back at it few days later, but then I just can't stop thinking of it now.
What I did was......
I forgot whether I locked the door or not.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
OMG ......... AUDI !!!!
lalalalala........
The world is a beautiful place......
audi audI auDI aUDI AUDI !!!!!!!!!
OH NO !!! I'm starting to daydream .......
But nevermind ! Because it's a sweet dream......I don't want to wake up... haha
Today started off lazily as I dragged my feet to class, wondering why did I even bother to go to uni as today's lecture only consist of watching other people present.But I guess "why not?", so reluctantly I went, sat on a random chair, glad that the lecturer didn't pick me to present.
Today we had a few students representing the entrepreneurship group, and a few representing marketing.The presentation went well,and I enjoyed both of them as well,one of my classmates presented also,I guess part of the reason I went was to support my classmate in presentation ! The marketing group was interesting at the same time,they had a sense of arrogance to them and named themselves the "marketing all stars"! The best part was their high tech PowerPoint,brochures and free samples,as if they were already selling the product.One thing I learnt is to treat everything you do as an opportunity to learn and not a chore, for example the presentation that the students had to squeeze out time to prepare for,and no marks are accounted for it,it is actually a really good chance to learn presentation skills and improve everytime,so that you will be prepared for the working world.
*5 hours break* go home to sleep...... zzzzz
RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN .........heavy RAIN
Hmmmm...should I go for the next class? I've got excuse to ponteng ....
Summore it's just operations management tutorial.... I could afford to skip that.
Couldn't decide..... think think think (at the meantime went online)
So me and my classmates were discussing in msn whether or not to go....
I didn't realize that going or not going to class was such a tough decision.
In the end my classmate convinced me to go.... haha,I'm so indecisive
When I cycled out it was still raining,then I started regretting and used my "one hand umbrella one hand hold bicycle" skill to balance myself.
*what happened in class was not important,so I skip the part*
Ok! here comes the climax !!!
After tutorial,wanting to cycle home in the rain,an AUDI droved past and stopped nearby,out came 2 leng lui's! and while I was still ogling at the AUDI,I saw someone waving to me from inside the car....!
Shy lar,only noticed the car didn't notice my friend....
So anyway,(because it was raining)my friend fetched me home from uni,I had never felt so good for leaving my bicycle in uni before.... ahaha
THANK YOU GOD FOR THE RAIN !!!
Riding in an AUDI is like a dream come true .....
My dream car..... I'm going to own an AUDI someday !
The world is a beautiful place......
audi audI auDI aUDI AUDI !!!!!!!!!
OH NO !!! I'm starting to daydream .......
But nevermind ! Because it's a sweet dream......I don't want to wake up... haha
Today started off lazily as I dragged my feet to class, wondering why did I even bother to go to uni as today's lecture only consist of watching other people present.But I guess "why not?", so reluctantly I went, sat on a random chair, glad that the lecturer didn't pick me to present.
Today we had a few students representing the entrepreneurship group, and a few representing marketing.The presentation went well,and I enjoyed both of them as well,one of my classmates presented also,I guess part of the reason I went was to support my classmate in presentation ! The marketing group was interesting at the same time,they had a sense of arrogance to them and named themselves the "marketing all stars"! The best part was their high tech PowerPoint,brochures and free samples,as if they were already selling the product.One thing I learnt is to treat everything you do as an opportunity to learn and not a chore, for example the presentation that the students had to squeeze out time to prepare for,and no marks are accounted for it,it is actually a really good chance to learn presentation skills and improve everytime,so that you will be prepared for the working world.
*5 hours break* go home to sleep...... zzzzz
RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN .........heavy RAIN
Hmmmm...should I go for the next class? I've got excuse to ponteng ....
Summore it's just operations management tutorial.... I could afford to skip that.
Couldn't decide..... think think think (at the meantime went online)
So me and my classmates were discussing in msn whether or not to go....
I didn't realize that going or not going to class was such a tough decision.
In the end my classmate convinced me to go.... haha,I'm so indecisive
When I cycled out it was still raining,then I started regretting and used my "one hand umbrella one hand hold bicycle" skill to balance myself.
*what happened in class was not important,so I skip the part*
Ok! here comes the climax !!!
After tutorial,wanting to cycle home in the rain,an AUDI droved past and stopped nearby,out came 2 leng lui's! and while I was still ogling at the AUDI,I saw someone waving to me from inside the car....!
Shy lar,only noticed the car didn't notice my friend....
So anyway,(because it was raining)my friend fetched me home from uni,I had never felt so good for leaving my bicycle in uni before.... ahaha
THANK YOU GOD FOR THE RAIN !!!
Riding in an AUDI is like a dream come true .....
My dream car..... I'm going to own an AUDI someday !
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
B'DAY
Thanks everybody for celebrating my b'day with me, really appreciate it !! Luv u guys !!!
I want to rededicate my life to God and remember that I should depend not on my own strength for everything, but rather rely on God !!!
Feeling weary? Tired? Want to give up? Sad? Nobody understands?
Take it to the Lord in prayer !
I want to rededicate my life to God and remember that I should depend not on my own strength for everything, but rather rely on God !!!
Feeling weary? Tired? Want to give up? Sad? Nobody understands?
Take it to the Lord in prayer !
Monday, August 17, 2009
Reflection
Recently I’ve been thinking a lot, and I feel kinda down, for no reason. I guess there is a time for everything, like mentioned in Ecclesiastes 3: 1-11
1 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill, And a time to heal; A time to break down, And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, And a time to laugh; A time to mourn, And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain, And a time to lose; A time to keep, And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear, And a time to sew; A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;
8 A time to love, And a time to hate; A time of war, And a time of peace;
9 What profit has the worker from that in which he labours?
10 I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied.
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
My friend (Mr. Green Shrek) shared this with me before, and this verse somehow applied to my current situation in a totally different way.
I’ve been reflecting a bit, having 2 dilemmas that I have to solve on my own. It’s just too complicated.
I’m also having some trouble finding a balance between my normal life and my Christian life, who would understand? I guess only God would truly understand what is happening, no big deal but my mood is going roller-coaster-like, one moment happy, another moment sad.
Dear Lord, speak, I’m listening.
Friday, August 14, 2009
COOKING FEVER
Recently I'm caught the cooking fever !!!!
Thanks to my dearly beloved caring parents who bought (too) many meat and veggies for me last week ........
So I (had no choice but to) consume all the food before it gets bad.
Today I cooked Ginseng chicken herbal soup, with a fried egg and rice for dinner....... !
I feel so proud of myself ! (evil laugh)
Now I understand how hard it is to cook a meal ...... thank you MAMI !!!
These are the times where you learn to be grateful for every home cooked meal and washed laundry..... for the clean floor and toilet.... for the little little thing that is done in the house......these chores seem like nothing to me before, but now when I have to do everything by myself only does it seem EXTRA....
Anyway ...... just wanna remind everybody to honor your parents and appreciate them always !
(Didn't take a picture of my wonderfully delicious soup....haha, didn't think of it until we were half way eating, then we went like "never mind lah")
Thanks to my dearly beloved caring parents who bought (too) many meat and veggies for me last week ........
So I (had no choice but to) consume all the food before it gets bad.
Today I cooked Ginseng chicken herbal soup, with a fried egg and rice for dinner....... !
I feel so proud of myself ! (evil laugh)
Now I understand how hard it is to cook a meal ...... thank you MAMI !!!
These are the times where you learn to be grateful for every home cooked meal and washed laundry..... for the clean floor and toilet.... for the little little thing that is done in the house......these chores seem like nothing to me before, but now when I have to do everything by myself only does it seem EXTRA....
Anyway ...... just wanna remind everybody to honor your parents and appreciate them always !
(Didn't take a picture of my wonderfully delicious soup....haha, didn't think of it until we were half way eating, then we went like "never mind lah")
I know the picture is quite small..... but anyway..... it's trying to say that Jesus has actually blocked a lot of troubles and disasters, so when we get hit by a small rock don't complain but yet be grateful because we have already been protected from Bigger rocks coming our way....A day without the Lord- Is a day wasted.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Mami N Dadi in kampar !!!
On Saturday my Mami a.k.a. Fei Miao and Dadi came all the way from kay-el to see miiiii !!!!
So HAPPY ahahahahahaha
Wii went shoppin tugether n bought suuuuu many stuff !! costs RM 150
1st time I buy suuu mach staaaff since I came Kampar.
Wii din go anywhere spesial, wii juz went four dinner in old tawn.
Next day, SUNday wii went church,
then dey left me there n wen old tawn maa-cat to bie vege for miii.
Den fei miao p-pared us (mii and dadi) dinner and bweakfast.
Alas !!!! home-cuok food !!!
SO HAPI DEY CAME !!!!
TQ fei miao n dadi for taking the trouble to come down to celebrate my b'day wif miiii !!!
So HAPPY ahahahahahaha
Wii went shoppin tugether n bought suuuuu many stuff !! costs RM 150
1st time I buy suuu mach staaaff since I came Kampar.
Wii din go anywhere spesial, wii juz went four dinner in old tawn.
Next day, SUNday wii went church,
then dey left me there n wen old tawn maa-cat to bie vege for miii.
Den fei miao p-pared us (mii and dadi) dinner and bweakfast.
Alas !!!! home-cuok food !!!
SO HAPI DEY CAME !!!!
TQ fei miao n dadi for taking the trouble to come down to celebrate my b'day wif miiii !!!
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