Friday, October 30, 2009

FRUSTRATED


I feel frustrated at myself

I get really annoyed when I make a mistake,say something wrong,and especially when I forget things.

Why am I such an idiot ?!!!!

I just feel like tearing something apart

I'm losing control,losing concentration,losing a lot.

I shouldn't be so uptight,but then again,I can't seem to forgive myself.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

What a way to start a sem

I had a really great time during my sem break, went to a lot of places, well not really a lot but I did plenty of shoppin !!! haha.I even worked! But then that was only for 2 days, in aunty rebecca's kindergarten.The one great part was I went Palace of the Golden Horses with my parents,stayed in the 6 star room,talk about luxury!

I started the sem with many new surprises and got myself involved in many things *cough cough*

Now I'm dead broke,my phone bill reached RM 158 (Thanks to me who kept using the phone to call),my new acoustic guitar costs RM 1500 (came with casing and a mini amp),my house rental(as usual)is RM 150,unit exemption fee for bahasa kebangsaan is RM 100 (UTAR wants to dig our pockets dry),summore this sem I'm using the car, therefore need to pump petrol,need to buy tickets to use the swimming pool,need to pay my friend for buying the swimming cap and goggles.

As you can see.....I badly need to save money,I shall cook at home and try to save up on other expenses.

SAVE MONEY !!!!!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

IAMHAVINGMYFINALSTOMORROWANDTHISISWHATIAMDOINGNOW

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

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Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

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Nosy Level: 60%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Finals

Finals are coming up and i don't have the mood to study.

Still relaxing.......

Pray hard that my grades don't drop too much this sem.

Don't have anything to blog, but just don't want to go study.

Blogging.... alone at home....

Feeling bored.....

and I found this.....

music theory.....

haha, so random......

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Short term memory loss

It always happens to me somehow.......
And once again I should just get over myself and laugh it off... but then I think it's my pride and stupidity that makes me hold on to petty things in life.
I should just forget all the little little things I do wrong and move on.

Man make mistakes like man go toilet
Laugh at it and move on in life as we go to toilet everyday

The matter is so small that even I would laugh at it when I look back at it few days later, but then I just can't stop thinking of it now.

What I did was......
I forgot whether I locked the door or not.

Monday, August 24, 2009

OMG ......... AUDI !!!!

lalalalala........
The world is a beautiful place......
audi audI auDI aUDI AUDI !!!!!!!!!
OH NO !!! I'm starting to daydream .......
But nevermind ! Because it's a sweet dream......I don't want to wake up... haha

Today started off lazily as I dragged my feet to class, wondering why did I even bother to go to uni as today's lecture only consist of watching other people present.But I guess "why not?", so reluctantly I went, sat on a random chair, glad that the lecturer didn't pick me to present.

Today we had a few students representing the entrepreneurship group, and a few representing marketing.The presentation went well,and I enjoyed both of them as well,one of my classmates presented also,I guess part of the reason I went was to support my classmate in presentation ! The marketing group was interesting at the same time,they had a sense of arrogance to them and named themselves the "marketing all stars"! The best part was their high tech PowerPoint,brochures and free samples,as if they were already selling the product.One thing I learnt is to treat everything you do as an opportunity to learn and not a chore, for example the presentation that the students had to squeeze out time to prepare for,and no marks are accounted for it,it is actually a really good chance to learn presentation skills and improve everytime,so that you will be prepared for the working world.

*5 hours break* go home to sleep...... zzzzz

RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN .........heavy RAIN

Hmmmm...should I go for the next class? I've got excuse to ponteng ....
Summore it's just operations management tutorial.... I could afford to skip that.
Couldn't decide..... think think think (at the meantime went online)
So me and my classmates were discussing in msn whether or not to go....
I didn't realize that going or not going to class was such a tough decision.
In the end my classmate convinced me to go.... haha,I'm so indecisive
When I cycled out it was still raining,then I started regretting and used my "one hand umbrella one hand hold bicycle" skill to balance myself.

*what happened in class was not important,so I skip the part*

Ok! here comes the climax !!!

After tutorial,wanting to cycle home in the rain,an AUDI droved past and stopped nearby,out came 2 leng lui's! and while I was still ogling at the AUDI,I saw someone waving to me from inside the car....!
Shy lar,only noticed the car didn't notice my friend....
So anyway,(because it was raining)my friend fetched me home from uni,I had never felt so good for leaving my bicycle in uni before.... ahaha
THANK YOU GOD FOR THE RAIN !!!

Riding in an AUDI is like a dream come true .....
My dream car..... I'm going to own an AUDI someday !







Wednesday, August 19, 2009

B'DAY

Thanks everybody for celebrating my b'day with me, really appreciate it !! Luv u guys !!!

I want to rededicate my life to God and remember that I should depend not on my own strength for everything, but rather rely on God !!!

Feeling weary? Tired? Want to give up? Sad? Nobody understands?
Take it to the Lord in prayer !

Monday, August 17, 2009

No 1 rule in cooking :
Do not cook "gon lou mee suah"

Reflection

Recently I’ve been thinking a lot, and I feel kinda down, for no reason. I guess there is a time for everything, like mentioned in Ecclesiastes 3: 1-11

1 To everything there is a season,

A time for every purpose under heaven:

2 A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted;

3 A time to kill, And a time to heal; A time to break down, And a time to build up;

4 A time to weep, And a time to laugh; A time to mourn, And a time to dance;

5 A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;

6 A time to gain, And a time to lose; A time to keep, And a time to throw away;

7 A time to tear, And a time to sew; A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;

8 A time to love, And a time to hate; A time of war, And a time of peace;

9 What profit has the worker from that in which he labours?

10 I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied.

11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.



My friend (Mr. Green Shrek) shared this with me before, and this verse somehow applied to my current situation in a totally different way.

I’ve been reflecting a bit, having 2 dilemmas that I have to solve on my own. It’s just too complicated.

I’m also having some trouble finding a balance between my normal life and my Christian life, who would understand? I guess only God would truly understand what is happening, no big deal but my mood is going roller-coaster-like, one moment happy, another moment sad.

Dear Lord, speak, I’m listening.

Friday, August 14, 2009

COOKING FEVER

Recently I'm caught the cooking fever !!!!

Thanks to my dearly beloved caring parents who bought (too) many meat and veggies for me last week ........
So I (had no choice but to) consume all the food before it gets bad.

Today I cooked Ginseng chicken herbal soup, with a fried egg and rice for dinner....... !
I feel so proud of myself ! (evil laugh)

Now I understand how hard it is to cook a meal ...... thank you MAMI !!!

These are the times where you learn to be grateful for every home cooked meal and washed laundry..... for the clean floor and toilet.... for the little little thing that is done in the house......these chores seem like nothing to me before, but now when I have to do everything by myself only does it seem EXTRA....

Anyway ...... just wanna remind everybody to honor your parents and appreciate them always !

(Didn't take a picture of my wonderfully delicious soup....haha, didn't think of it until we were half way eating, then we went like "never mind lah")
I know the picture is quite small..... but anyway..... it's trying to say that Jesus has actually blocked a lot of troubles and disasters, so when we get hit by a small rock don't complain but yet be grateful because we have already been protected from Bigger rocks coming our way....

A day without the Lord- Is a day wasted.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Mami N Dadi in kampar !!!

On Saturday my Mami a.k.a. Fei Miao and Dadi came all the way from kay-el to see miiiii !!!!
So HAPPY ahahahahahaha
Wii went shoppin tugether n bought suuuuu many stuff !! costs RM 150
1st time I buy suuu mach staaaff since I came Kampar.
Wii din go anywhere spesial, wii juz went four dinner in old tawn.
Next day, SUNday wii went church,
then dey left me there n wen old tawn maa-cat
to bie vege for miii.
Den fei miao p-pared us (mii and dadi) dinner and bweakfast.
Alas !!!! home-cuok food !!!
SO HAPI DEY CAME !!!!
TQ fei miao n dadi for taking the trouble to come down to celebrate my b'day wif miiii !!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

Run people, run !!!

Good news Everybody !!!
Pacesetters is coming to kampar !!!! Yeah !!!!
Finally......(phew)


Kampar Friendship Run 2009
Organized by : Kampar Runners and Runners Malaysia

Date: 6 Sept 2009
Starting time: 7:30 am
Charges: FREE !
*Those who wanna come pls tell me ya....


Since this is only a friendship run, there will be no medals awarded (that's what uncle chan told me :-))
So no matter how fast you run..... or fly....or roll to the finish line you still don't get a medal.... ahaha
But who cares ??
The fun part is running together with sooo many friends......!

Ahem....trying to promote healthy living here.....

RUN PEOPLE, RUN !!!

Here is the link.....
http://www.pacesetters.com.my/events/KamparFlierJuly09.pdf

Monday, July 6, 2009

Tagged !!!

被点名!

♥.PART ONE
Q01、你的大名
Tan Wai Wai

Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福?
Going home

Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要,為什麼?
Friends because they feel more real

Q04、你相信天長地久嗎?
Not really

Q06、你現在過得快樂麼?
Ok lar

Q07、如果有秘密,你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎?
Not all secrets, I will choose which one to tell

Q08、喜歡小Baby嗎?
Yes

Q09、覺得友情是永遠的麼?
Some

Q10、希望自己多大結婚?
After 28 I guess

Q11、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情?
Yes

Q12、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好?
Anything that is suitable

Q13、最想去哪裡旅遊?
Around the world, especially Germany

Q14、一輩子都不會忘記的事?
Too many to count

Q15、如果愛一個人,是不是要拼命挽回他?
Depends

Q16、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰?
Nobody, I just enjoy the view....hmmm

Q17、你會愛他一輩子麼?
Dunno how to answer la

Q18、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人,你會選哪個?
The person I like

Q19、你會以何種方式表現你對他(她)的愛?
It can't be described in a sentence, use many ways I guess

Q20、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼?
Depends on my mood....hehe.....

Q21、如果你想痛扁一個人,你希望那個人是?
Nobody, nobody I wanna beat up

Q22、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎?
Some decisions

Q23、現在最迷什麼?
Running and guitar

Q24、你是好孩子嗎?
Of course...... :-D

Q25、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要?
Bread .....haha

Q26、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣?
Cry with my guitar

Q27、如果你的BF(GF)經常不回家的話,你會怎樣?
Get worried I guess.....

♥. PART TWO
01、是誰傳給你這份問卷的?
Miss starfish (valarie)

02、你們認識多久呢?
For a really long time......around 5 years

03、他對你來說重要嗎?
Of course......!!! One of my most "sam pat" friend....wakaka

04、你與他的關係是?
Ex-high school mate/ good friend

05、請問他的興趣是?
Music, fashion, bullying other people etc

06、你覺得他的個性如何?
Very jahat....haha, a girl with character

07、他在你心目中是幾分?
89% (Dun ask me why)

08、睡覺前第一件事?
Depends on my mood

09、你的偶像?
Dun have a special one

10、你喜歡的季節?
summer

11、你打工麼?
Yes, but now studying in UTAR

12、打工次數?
2 times, first as a kindergarten teacher, second as a assistant in a law firm

13、你想去的國家?
Apa ni ask already ask again..... Dun wanna answer liao.

14、你討厭什麼樣的個性?
Rude and no respect for people

15、你會抽煙麼?
No

16、你會喝酒麼?
Little bit, I like wine and beer, seldom take other kinds of liqour

17、你常哭麼?
No, and i don't hope to

18、你常笑麼?
Depends on the situation

19、你喜歡去哪玩?
Alot of places ...... like germany

20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼?
NO

21、是假日時你都睡到幾點?
Sometimes 12 noon, sometimes 8am, sometimes 3.30pm

22、今天的天氣是?
Kampar weather is always HOT

23、朋友和情人你會選?
Friends la, answer b4 wat this question.....

24、機會和命運你會選擇?
Chance

25、你很自戀麼?
Ocassionally

26、這問卷多不多?
IT'S TOOOOOOO LONG !!!!

27、要怎樣才能讓自己好過一點?
Seek God

28、生日想得到什麼禮物?
Electric Guitar, i-phone, Audi, Adidas running shoes, Apple laptop etc
(or it can be a simple card, sms etc.... :-D)

29、喜歡吃冰麼?
Yes.... !

30、現在幸福嗎?
Yes, fei miao and daddy love me .....haha

31、最在乎的哪幾個朋友?
I can't put my finger on one..... care for all??

32、房間裡最重要的東西是什麼?
Laptop and Guitar

33、最常夢到什麼?
Don't remember

34、精神出軌要不要原諒他?
NO !!

35、你認為人生的意義是什麼?
Live for God

36、聽什麼歌一定會流淚?
At the moment don't have

37、如果沒有朋友你會怎麼做?
Sit there and wait......lol

38、如果我不見了你會怎樣?
Call the police and your parents and people who might know where you are

39、地上有一張100和50的鈔票?
This is such a "mou liu" question......skip.....next question

40、現在時間?
4:14 pm

41、目前最喜歡聽的一首歌?
"wu le bu zhuo"

42、目前最想說的一句話?
WHY DID YOU TAG ME????!!!!!

43、目前的煩惱是什麼?
Mid-term, assignments

44、今天中午吃什麼?
vegetarian curry mee hoon mee

45、賤的程度分幾級?
3 levels, "abit jin","jin","very jin"

46、做壞事了怎麼辦?
Ask for forgiveness

47、什麼時候才會有工作?
Sem break

48、什麼時候才會打到驚魂書?
What the @#$%!

49、客戶呀你在哪裡?
@#$%!

50、開心的笑是不是很難?
NOOOOO

51、我們一起開心的走下去,好不好?
-.-

52、有沒有崩潰的感覺.?
YES !!!!!

53、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎?
Antartica

♥. PART THREE
54、我的BGM好听么?
WHAT THE HELL IS BGM??

55、你的皮包里有什么说说吧!
Money, money, more money, coins, receipt, atm slip, Atm card, other cards, IC, Driving license and a guitar pick

56、你生命中最重要的人是?一个而已啊
How can I split my fei miao and daddy apart???

57、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀
Too many stuff

58、现在有喜欢的人吗?
No

59、你還喜歡他(她)嗎?
No

60、你觉得我坏吗?
yes, for tagging me

我的天啊!我终于把问卷给填完答案了...
Can't think of anyone to tag, and don't want to put my friends through this gruesome task.

遊戲規則:1、被點名的人在我空間將這篇文章轉載到自己空間中,然後在編輯,刪去我的答案,要在自己的Q空間裡寫下自己的答案,然後傳給其他人,列出個需要回答問題的人的名字,通知對方被點名了,被點名者不得拒絕回答問題,完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。
2 、這個人要在自己的Q空間裡註明是從哪裡接到問題的,並且再想一個題目傳給其他個人,讓幸福的遊戲繼續下去。
3 、不能回傳,否則犯規!
4 、被點到名字的人將得到大家的祝福,並且所有的美麗願望都會在不久後實現。
5、請點10個老朋友,不准不點,點完後請通知那10個老朋友他們被點!