It's been soooooo long since I jogged......
I'm getting old and losing stamina .........haha
But then last night, my cg friends ajak me go jogging
Guess what time we went jogging????!!!!!
12 am !!!!
My very first midnight jog.
We went jogging at eastlake area, there was no cars and alot of bullshit (yes, bull punya shit),
the air was cool, and it was very refreshing.
After jogging then 'keng gai' abit...... reach home about 1:45am
Feel so syok after running/jogging.
It's refreshing after all the suffocating boredom here
While jogging I just want to forget all my troubles, frustrations, useless worries
Just run
Run like there isn't a care in the world
Run the race, keep my pace, keep my eyes on Jesus
Friday, March 27, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I need a break
I typed and deleted and typed and deleted this post many times
Thinking of whether or not to post this
It makes me feel so vulnerable
I'm so tired now, I need a break
It's not like being only physically tired but also mentally tired
I keep setting goals for myself
Expectations
Hopes
But now, I just want to let it all go
And I question myself "Is it all worthwhile?"
'Not my will but Yours be done'
I need somebody I can depend on......
Thank You Jesus for never leaving me nor forsaking me
Thank God for good friends
I owe a big thank you to them
So here it goes.......
THANKS !!!!!
Thinking of whether or not to post this
It makes me feel so vulnerable
I'm so tired now, I need a break
It's not like being only physically tired but also mentally tired
I keep setting goals for myself
Expectations
Hopes
But now, I just want to let it all go
And I question myself "Is it all worthwhile?"
'Not my will but Yours be done'
I need somebody I can depend on......
Thank You Jesus for never leaving me nor forsaking me
Thank God for good friends
I owe a big thank you to them
So here it goes.......
THANKS !!!!!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
who are my friends?
This was originaly written on paper on friday
This is a good time to write a story.
I' sitting alone at the ground floor of block b,
it's pouring cats and dogs outside.
My jeans are drenched, and so are my spirits
It's 6:04 m.
My friends have all gone back a few hours ago, my house mates left for home yesterday night and today morning respectively.
the campus is nearly deserted, it's all dark and they already turned on the night lights.
Every face I see now is unfamiliar. Talk about lonely!
It started out on wednesday, I'm rushing to pass up 2 of my assignments today(friday), I was SS! (short for Super Stressed)
The 2 assignments I had to pass up was law and accounting (dehumanizing subjects)
All the assignments wereonly half way done. There were 3 qestions for the law assignment, me and a friend was supposed to do Q3, then the other 2 friends do Q1. Q2 was supposed to be done together and discussed. Somehow under circumstances which I do not wish to explain, nobody got answers for Q2, and the result was I had to do it. It was not easy to do Q2, let me repeat, NOT EASY. I felt like I just got slapped in the face.
After alot of stinking hours, and having not finished law yet, I got really cranky, and my classmates from another assigment group decided to come to my house and ask me something about accounts. My brain was having difficulty shifting from law mode to accounts mode. I suddenly had alot of friends.
It feels really empty, realy.
Then with that weird feeling in my gut, I finalized Q2 of the law assignment.Then only I went to bathe at 1 am......
After that I proceeded to go through the accounts assignment. Then only did I realize, that there was a BIG problem with the accounts assignment, the figures were wrong, the analysis not complete, as a result, SS!
I only slept at 2 something in the morning.
The next day, thursday, Idecided to plough through the accounts assignment, correct whatever mistakes and edit some parts.
I skipped 2 lectures and ate my branch (breakfast + lunch) at 3.30pm.
I felt my life shortened dramatically by a few years.
吃不饱，睡不好
At night, another group member (senior) came over to my house to finish the accounts assignment.
THANK YOU, LORD!
I'm surprised that the guy was really friendly and had lots to talk about. Don't judge a book by it's cover, another lesson learnt. But then i was classified into the guai guai, silly study type girl.
Why do we streotype people?
Today, friday, I began to question myself, Who are my friends? Sometimes I feel spitefully used. People approach me when they need help, but apart from that I'm invisible.
I've always known people like these in my life, especially in secondary school.
Oh, let me see, maybe I'm too boring or stupid t be equivalent to a friend. Yes, I' depressed, and i'm venting out my frustration here.
Now it's 7:18 pm and it's still raining outside, I had managed to cycle back without being considerably wet.
I closed my eyes, trying to be strong.
Stop being so stupid, I had to tell myself
My emotional state and my mental state is always contradicting
Who are my friends? And where are they?
This is a good time to write a story.
I' sitting alone at the ground floor of block b,
it's pouring cats and dogs outside.
My jeans are drenched, and so are my spirits
It's 6:04 m.
My friends have all gone back a few hours ago, my house mates left for home yesterday night and today morning respectively.
the campus is nearly deserted, it's all dark and they already turned on the night lights.
Every face I see now is unfamiliar. Talk about lonely!
It started out on wednesday, I'm rushing to pass up 2 of my assignments today(friday), I was SS! (short for Super Stressed)
The 2 assignments I had to pass up was law and accounting (dehumanizing subjects)
All the assignments wereonly half way done. There were 3 qestions for the law assignment, me and a friend was supposed to do Q3, then the other 2 friends do Q1. Q2 was supposed to be done together and discussed. Somehow under circumstances which I do not wish to explain, nobody got answers for Q2, and the result was I had to do it. It was not easy to do Q2, let me repeat, NOT EASY. I felt like I just got slapped in the face.
After alot of stinking hours, and having not finished law yet, I got really cranky, and my classmates from another assigment group decided to come to my house and ask me something about accounts. My brain was having difficulty shifting from law mode to accounts mode. I suddenly had alot of friends.
It feels really empty, realy.
Then with that weird feeling in my gut, I finalized Q2 of the law assignment.Then only I went to bathe at 1 am......
After that I proceeded to go through the accounts assignment. Then only did I realize, that there was a BIG problem with the accounts assignment, the figures were wrong, the analysis not complete, as a result, SS!
I only slept at 2 something in the morning.
The next day, thursday, Idecided to plough through the accounts assignment, correct whatever mistakes and edit some parts.
I skipped 2 lectures and ate my branch (breakfast + lunch) at 3.30pm.
I felt my life shortened dramatically by a few years.
吃不饱，睡不好
At night, another group member (senior) came over to my house to finish the accounts assignment.
THANK YOU, LORD!
I'm surprised that the guy was really friendly and had lots to talk about. Don't judge a book by it's cover, another lesson learnt. But then i was classified into the guai guai, silly study type girl.
Why do we streotype people?
Today, friday, I began to question myself, Who are my friends? Sometimes I feel spitefully used. People approach me when they need help, but apart from that I'm invisible.
I've always known people like these in my life, especially in secondary school.
Oh, let me see, maybe I'm too boring or stupid t be equivalent to a friend. Yes, I' depressed, and i'm venting out my frustration here.
Now it's 7:18 pm and it's still raining outside, I had managed to cycle back without being considerably wet.
I closed my eyes, trying to be strong.
Stop being so stupid, I had to tell myself
My emotional state and my mental state is always contradicting
Who are my friends? And where are they?
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
人比人，比死人
I live in a world where people constantly compare themselves with other people, it's an on-going torment, like "why is she prettier than me?","why people listen to him and not me?","why do I struggle and fail when people find it so easy to ovecome problems?","why am I so stupid?"(classic)
Comparing ourself against one another have been like the essence of our lives, if so, what meaning is there? What are we proving for?
We are never, maybe I should just speak for myself, I am never satisfied with what I have, I always have to go and compare myself with others, I'm such an idiot.
And my devotion today proved to be useful to teach me and to remind me to be thankful for what I have.
Reflections on the Sayings of the Desert Fathers
A brother who was living among other brothers asked Abba Bessarion : What should I do?
The old man replied: Be silent, and do not measure yourself against the others.
It's tempting to compare ourselves with other people.
Comparing ourselves with people can lead us down the slippery slpoe: we see what people have or don't have; we wish for what we do not have or gloat at what they do not have; eventually we fall into envy, greed, self-hatred or pride.
the process of falling into sin often begins when we measure ourselves against others. Such compulsive behaviour eventually feeds our lust and makes us proud of our possesions and abilities (1 john 2:16)
Be watchful, lest you fall into sin
when was the last time you compared yourself with others? just now? Did any of these tendancies cause you to sin?
Notice the people, time and place that cause you to measure yourself against others.
Ask Jesus to help you 'silence' these thoughts, and give thanks for the abilities of other people.
Further reading: Psalm 34:15-22 , Isaiah 55:6-11 , Matt 6:7-15
Comparing ourself against one another have been like the essence of our lives, if so, what meaning is there? What are we proving for?
We are never, maybe I should just speak for myself, I am never satisfied with what I have, I always have to go and compare myself with others, I'm such an idiot.
And my devotion today proved to be useful to teach me and to remind me to be thankful for what I have.
Reflections on the Sayings of the Desert Fathers
A brother who was living among other brothers asked Abba Bessarion : What should I do?
The old man replied: Be silent, and do not measure yourself against the others.
It's tempting to compare ourselves with other people.
Comparing ourselves with people can lead us down the slippery slpoe: we see what people have or don't have; we wish for what we do not have or gloat at what they do not have; eventually we fall into envy, greed, self-hatred or pride.
the process of falling into sin often begins when we measure ourselves against others. Such compulsive behaviour eventually feeds our lust and makes us proud of our possesions and abilities (1 john 2:16)
Be watchful, lest you fall into sin
when was the last time you compared yourself with others? just now? Did any of these tendancies cause you to sin?
Notice the people, time and place that cause you to measure yourself against others.
Ask Jesus to help you 'silence' these thoughts, and give thanks for the abilities of other people.
Further reading: Psalm 34:15-22 , Isaiah 55:6-11 , Matt 6:7-15
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