who are my friends?

This was originaly written on paper on friday

This is a good time to write a story.
I' sitting alone at the ground floor of block b,
it's pouring cats and dogs outside.
My jeans are drenched, and so are my spirits
It's 6:04 m.
My friends have all gone back a few hours ago, my house mates left for home yesterday night and today morning respectively.
the campus is nearly deserted, it's all dark and they already turned on the night lights.
Every face I see now is unfamiliar. Talk about lonely!

It started out on wednesday, I'm rushing to pass up 2 of my assignments today(friday), I was SS! (short for Super Stressed)
The 2 assignments I had to pass up was law and accounting (dehumanizing subjects)

All the assignments wereonly half way done. There were 3 qestions for the law assignment, me and a friend was supposed to do Q3, then the other 2 friends do Q1. Q2 was supposed to be done together and discussed. Somehow under circumstances which I do not wish to explain, nobody got answers for Q2, and the result was I had to do it. It was not easy to do Q2, let me repeat, NOT EASY. I felt like I just got slapped in the face.

After alot of stinking hours, and having not finished law yet, I got really cranky, and my classmates from another assigment group decided to come to my house and ask me something about accounts. My brain was having difficulty shifting from law mode to accounts mode. I suddenly had alot of friends.

It feels really empty, realy.

Then with that weird feeling in my gut, I finalized Q2 of the law assignment.Then only I went to bathe at 1 am......
After that I proceeded to go through the accounts assignment. Then only did I realize, that there was a BIG problem with the accounts assignment, the figures were wrong, the analysis not complete, as a result, SS!
I only slept at 2 something in the morning.

The next day, thursday, Idecided to plough through the accounts assignment, correct whatever mistakes and edit some parts.
I skipped 2 lectures and ate my branch (breakfast + lunch) at 3.30pm.
I felt my life shortened dramatically by a few years.

吃不饱，睡不好

At night, another group member (senior) came over to my house to finish the accounts assignment.
THANK YOU, LORD!

I'm surprised that the guy was really friendly and had lots to talk about. Don't judge a book by it's cover, another lesson learnt. But then i was classified into the guai guai, silly study type girl.
Why do we streotype people?

Today, friday, I began to question myself, Who are my friends? Sometimes I feel spitefully used. People approach me when they need help, but apart from that I'm invisible.
I've always known people like these in my life, especially in secondary school.
Oh, let me see, maybe I'm too boring or stupid t be equivalent to a friend. Yes, I' depressed, and i'm venting out my frustration here.

Now it's 7:18 pm and it's still raining outside, I had managed to cycle back without being considerably wet.
I closed my eyes, trying to be strong.
Stop being so stupid, I had to tell myself
My emotional state and my mental state is always contradicting

Who are my friends? And where are they?