Loneliness

I feel so alone in a crowd, I feel so alone in my class, I feel so alone among my ‘friends’. Don’t know why I feel so depressed. There are so many people around, although I’m talking with them, laughing with them, I still feel so lonely. Maybe I’ve too much free time, and I’ve used this free time to become depressed. When I shared this in the cg, the advice I got was to talk to God. It really reminded me to trust God more… (thanks for the advice)

Dear Lord, You are the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end, the holy savior that died on the cross for my sins that I may receive salvation, my heavenly father who accepts me for who I am. I pray that You forgive me for not reading the bible everyday, forgive me for not praying when I’m supposed to, forgive me for sometimes being a bad testimony to my friends, although I try so hard not to, forgive me for delaying the gospel. I pray that You teach me to be a better disciple. I thank You for taking care of “yu zhao a yee”, thank You for making her sufferings lighter, if it is according to Your will, I pray that You remove all the cancerous cells in her body, she still has the burning passion to serve You. Oh Lord, if it’s according to Your will, heal her. She can be a living testimony, to glorify Your name. I thank You for always being there to listen to my cries, I pray that You give me inner peace to conquer all the troubles the world can throw at me, through Your mighty power I can conquer all things. I thank You for placing me in such a friendly church, with so many great people, pray that will be people after Your heart, that they may delight in Your presence, and live up to their fullest potential. Thank You for giving me the strength to continue on, keep running the marathon of my life J. I want to pray for fei miao and dadi, pray that You grant dadi good health, heal all the sickness in his body. I pray for fei miao, pray that her book will be successful, I pray that her ministry will bring You glory.
I also want to pray for Pastor Lily, grant her Your peace that surpasses all understanding, grant her a heart made of gold, grant her strength to carry on (sounds like the prayer for myself tim…) may she place all her burdens at Your feet, learn to depend on You more than anything else in the world, let her faith grow tremendously, be her Jehovah Raah, be her shepherd . I want to pray for Than Foong and Yann Mei, I pray that they will learn to acknowledge You, I pray that You will bless them in their studies, I pray that I’ll be a good testimony to them, teach me to be a salt and light unto my friends. I want to pray for dab, pray that she will grow deeper and deeper in love with You, let her desire to accomplish Your wills. I also want to pray for ama, pray that she focus on You whenever she feels alone, letting go of all the fears in life and to depend on You fully. Pray for my own spiritual life, I want to draw closer to You, I offer my life to You, everything I’ve been through, use it for You glory, Lord I offer my days to You, lifting my praise to You, as a living sacrifice, Lord I offer You my life. I pray for wisdom, I desire to know more about You, know more about Your word, sometimes I think a lot about the purpose of life, and I know everything happens for a purpose and plan, I pray that You make my life purposeful for You in Kampar, here am I, send me. Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary; pure and holy, tried and true, with thanksgiving, I’ll be a living sanctuary for You. I pray for fresh anointing everyday, and desire for You more and more each day. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.